future...

these past few wks i haf been tinkin alot abt my future...i mean im gonna finish poly in lyk less den 2 mths & i havent cme up wit any plans yet...i dunno if i wan to cont studyin, start werkin or mayb both...its juz tt im worried tt i might nt b able to feed my parents if i were to cont studyin...

i havent felt so much responsibility b4...i kip tinkin tt my parents r oreadi 50+, e age gap is seriously an issue...i kip worryin abt my parents...i wonder if i cld make enuf money to support dem or at least take over sum of their responsibilities lyk paying off sum bills...

i mean all of a sudden im startin to feel tt i reli2 nid to grow up & start tinkin of all dis...in a way i feel kinda scared...im so worried abt e future fer my parents...i was tellin my mom abt all dis & she said tt as long as she & my dad r werkin, i shldnt b worried...

but hw can i nt b? i dun intend to make dem work till im rich enuf to support dem...dey r nt gettin any younger & i dun wan dem to leave me one day w/o me being able to take care of dem...all dis seems to bother me dis days...nw im kinda livin off my bank acc...

i try to use my own money as much as possible cuz knowin me i used to ask fer money fer little things...but nw im sensible enuf to stop askin fer money xcept fer certain things lyk transport fees (onli fer e moment)...so i sat dwn in my room durin x'mas & tot abt wat i wanna do wit my lyf...

firstly i'll start ngaji afta i finish my attachment (e sayin "Kalau aku mati nanti siapa nak baca kan aku surah yasin" by my mom does haf a major effect)...i wanna do it mostly fer my mom...if tt day were to ever cme i wan her to b proud of me cuz i can pray fer her & nt disappoint her...ok nw im feelin super sad...k next!

secondly, i was lookin thru sum websites & i found a sch tt offers part time photography courses...as my nick wld haf mentioned...its @ NAFA...ya ya i noe its an art sch & all...every1 is lyk shocked to hear dis but apparently tt's e onli sch tt offers a basic photography course tt i can learn frm scratch...

since i've always wanted to LEARN more abt photography, i figured tt NAFA is e place to start...once i've gt my basics i can den move on to gettin a diploma & degree @ LA SELLE...i c photography as my passion...if im gd at it i'd probably cld make a livin out of it...

wit NAFA on my list i nid to werk to pay e fees...so fortunately e basic course is onli 5 mths & it doesnt cost tt much compared to private courses...so frm march to july (may i'll register & i'll start sch in july) i'll werk part time to save money fer e fees...

since e course is part time, i can find another job (mayb werk at 7-11 agen since its flexible) to help me save money & help out my parents...so basically dis is my plan fer e werk n studies thingy...it seems kinda easy but i bet wen e tym cmes its gonna b tougher...but dis is my basic plan...i still nid to tink a lil more in depth

lastly, im gonna change my habits bit by bit...lyk for example im gonna quit drinkin, stop myself frm gettin a tattoo (which i wan so badly), slowly quit smokin, start prayin agen, learn ngaji, pay back my fast & sum things i'd rather nt mention...

ya dere's a lot more whr tt came frm but e ones i mentioned r my top priorities...lyk wat i told my mom (3/4 of e things she doesnt noe abt) i hope tt i'll b able to fulfill all dis in other werds i hope i haf a long lyf...ok im a lil too young to tink of death but i cant help it...it scares me esp wen im no angel...

so tinkin of e future scares me alot...wit changes & responsibilities on my mind, i hafta start actin lyk a mature adult (hahaha in which im so nt & i dunno hw to)...i guess u can safely say tt all dis cmes under my resolutions fer 2008...

i bet all my other frens r tinkin of e same (hopefully)...well wit e exception fer e guys since dey've gt a 2 yr buffer tym to tink abt e future...hmmm i guess tt'll b all...dere's still summore future plannin i still nid to tink abt =)

p.s: my entries r always long...i tink i tok to much...wat u tink? =)

Priceless...

Listen
I'm the kind of man
Who really doesn't take the time to understand
That what I did was wrong
But girl you forced my hand
And now girl look at me
Got people saying
I'm not that crazy
Okay I take it back
Whatever it was I said
Oh girl I take it back
Where in the hell was I when you started to pack your bags?
Why didn't you talk to me?
What about my letters?
Did you ever get 'em?

Still smell your scent all in my bed
I'm at the place where we first met
And I'm sending you a ticket
And if you still feel it
Meet me there
'Cause when I look at me I'm like a puzzle Without the pieces I need
Girl I'm in trouble
I need you to come and save me
Oh, I miss my baby
I need you there
Say you'll be there
Ride a jet over seas
Hotels are on the beach
To be with you again is priceless

Now I'm in the room
Watching the clock every hour waiting to here from you
I called the airline they said you'll be landing soon
So I'm on my way
I got a thousand things in my head I want to say girl
I love you and I miss
Would it be too much if I kiss you
Baby let me paint this picture
I ain't shit if I ain't with you
No, no, oh no, oh no
Should I listen?
Is that what was missing?
Tell me baby

Still smell your scent all in my bed (in my bed)
I'm at the place where we first met
I'm sending you this ticket
And if you still feel it
Meet me there
'Cause when I look at me I'm like a puzzle (When I look at me Baby)
Without the pieces I need
Girl I'm in trouble
I need you to come and save me (I need your love)
Oh I miss my baby (cause I need your love)
I need you there (I ned you there oh Babe oh Baby)
Say you'll be there (I'm lonely without you)
Ride a jet over seas (I'll pay for everythihng)
Hotels are on the beach (but that don't mean a thing)
To be with you again is priceless (if you're not here with me)

I'm at the airport waiting on you
Wishing you'd show up
I hope you do
If you still believe
You're my missing piece
The guard is telling me
Man I got to leave

I'm at the airport waiting on you
Wishing you'd show up
I hope you do
If you still believe
You're my missing piece
I know money can buy me anything
Except for you

When I look at me I'm like a puzzle Without the pieces I need
Girl I'm in trouble
I need you to come and save me (said I need you Baby)
Oh I miss my baby (come and save me)
I need you there (got a big old house up on the hill
Say you'll be there (but its so empty 'cause you're not here)
Ride a jet over seas
Hotels are on the beach
To be with you again is priceless (I need you Baby)

P.S: these r e words i've been wantin to say & dis is wat i haf been feelin...u r Priceless

FuN tYms...

damn, i miz all those tyms in my sec sch days...it was loads of crappiness...havin e chalet reli makes us recall all those tyms tt we enjoyed...b it crazy, stupid or embarrassing (me havin e most no of memorable falls back den) it was funny all e same...everytym we get a chance to mit, we nvr fail to tok abt it...e topic juz nvr gets stale...

those were such great tyms...all of us r wishin fer e same thing...hw we cld turn back tym...hahaha...although back den we did haf our fair share of anger n sorrows but tt doesnt stop us frm wantin to go back...unfortunately all tt's left is juz memories...

all we can do is rmb (we cld re-enact though...hahaha)...i personally had a few memories tt i wish i cld erase...e hurtful n painful memories...hahahah...but cme to tink of it, those memories seems funny nw...i mean back den was bad but nw its lyk juz a joke...sumthin kids do at tt age...

hahaha...wtf am i tokin abt man? well wateva it is i reli enjoyed myself yest...thx fer organisin it...we shld do tt more often...mit up wenever we can n crap all nite long repeatin e same thing agen n agen n nt get sick n tired of it...hahahaha...i'll nvr get sick n tired listenin to it fer sure =)


p.s: i seriously tink i suck at bloggin...other ppls english r lyk so much better la...plus their stories r more interestin den mine n e way dey describe it is so much better...sumtyms i wonder y do i bother bloggin...my lyf is lyk god damn boring to share it wit ppl...crap =)

questions...

Y is it tt things always turn out dis way? No matter hw hard i try or hw much i've changed, things will nvr b e same...when one prob is solved, another one arises. it's never ending...but somehw in every relationship, im e one tt nvr wants to gif up or let go...im e persistent one...i realised tt no matter how nice i am or hw gd i treat ppl, i'll always end up at e losing end...

i can nvr run away frm losin...it juz follows me wherever i go...is it me or is it dem? i've toned dwn practically all e negativeness in me...b it my sarcasm, ego & even my temper...things i wld nvr even do fer my parents, i've done fer u...i did all dis fer u but u nvr seem to understand xcept fer tt tym recently wen u came over late at nite under my void deck...u still came even though i told u countless tyms i didnt wanna c u...but still i let u in...i can nvr ever bear to let u wait fer me unlyk all those tyms i waited fer u...

i fer one noes hw it feels to wait fer sumone but dey nvr came dwn in e end...wen u came, it was e happiest day i've had in a long tym...u chased me...u dunno noe hw long i waited for tt day to cme...but nw things haf reverted back to e way it was b4...u still ignore my calls & smses when i shld b e one hu's doin tt...

in every relationship, i tried to change accordin to their wants but lyk every one of em, im always e one feelin e hurt...yes i noe u r feelin it too but unlyk u, i cant forget things easily & move on...i hate being a burden to my frens whenever i wan to tell em abt my probs...

love doesnt cme easily fer me...although i dun treasure it sumtyms or quarrel wit u, i will nvr make decisions such as breakin up...to me, as long as i still love u & as long as i can salvage it, i'll kip on tryin & nt gif up...no matter hw angry i am at u or hw i hated e things u've done, my heart can nvr bear to say "i want a break up"

sayin those words wld mean tt i no longer haf any feelings fer u & nt bother u ever agen or tt u've cheated on me...but u, e person i fell so in love wit, will nvr do tt to me...at least u made me blieve so...up until nw, i still blieve in e quote i go by yrs ago, back wen i was in sec sch...

"its better to want them & nt haf them, then havin them & nt want them"...i feel tt even afta all those yrs wen i've suffered so much pain for e 1st tym, i still feel it nw...but wit a diff person...havin to b able to onli look & befriend sumone u lyk is far better den bein wit them & break up sum tym afta...e hurt is so much more worst than havin to b their fren & nothin else...

i guess e quote is gonna stay wit me fer a v long tym...it means so much in juz one sentence & it xplains everythin abt hw i feel & hw i haf been feelin...

Fuh!!!!

so ok i havent been updatin in a long2 tym & my frens r buggin me to update...so here goes, firstly i haf finally finished my FYP in NYP so nw juz another 3 mths of attachment & im free lyk a bird...e reason y i didnt update is cuz i was too bz wit FYP...basically wat i do is to tune a pole balancing robot to do as many laps as possible for e S'pore Robotics Games (SRG) 2008 during e 1st wk of Jan...

so max i tuned it was 36 laps...den my supervisor went to change sum programs & e robot cant even run 1 lap...so i spent a lot of tym tryin to tune e robot back to 36 laps...e best part was i onli had a wk left in FYP & my co-supervisor said tt he had given me a certain grade but e manager says tt i dun deserve tt grade unless i can tune e robot back to 36 laps by e end of my FYP wk...wtf ryte?

so basically it was hopeless...nobody noes wat e hell is wrong wit e freakin robot...nt even my 2 supervisors...furthermore e robots components r failing & dere isnt anymore components till dec...so dere is nothin i can do...but sumhw yest FORTUNATELY my co supervisor blinded one of e IR sensors (which btw i told him tt e sensor had probs LONG2 tym ago) & e robot cld run back e 36 laps

guess wat e tym was wen e probs started to solve? it was at 515pm & my sch ends at 530pm...hahaha but wateva e matter e robot is back to 36 laps & its gonna b under my name...so if e robot wins in SRG, i get e credit...woohoo!!! so yest i stayed till arnd 7pm to confem tt my robot is runnin back to normal...so im gonna go sch durin weekends during dec to tune e robot...

well i felt reli relieved tt eventually afta all tt hardwork, it paid off...hopefully it goes well till SRG...so at e end of yest, all my FYP lab mates managed to finish everythin well & met our requirements...we left e lab wit a heavy heart...hahaha funny tt fer e past 12 wks we've been complainin abt hw we wanted to leave e place & hw fucked up our supervisors & manager r...

hahaha btw my manager, Mr Wong is a.k.a crazy frog...u wanna noe y? cuz he reli looks lyk a crazy frog...its stupid hw a guy lyk him can bcome e manager...well lyk wat me n andri always says...he boot licks e directors tt's y he's e manager...plus he onli noes hw to command ppl but he dunno ANYTHIN!!! hahaha well he praised me yest sayin tt im v gd at tuning...

so at e end of e day i did enjoy my days at FYP...lotsa thanks to mr albert tan & andri hu helped me troubleshoot e robot & nvr gave up...w/o dem i dun tink its possible to do wat i did...THANKS!!! so tt was hw my last wk in FYP was...so guys dun say i didnt update...dis entry is damn freakin long man =)

Sorry Lin...

haiz Lin is damn pissed at me fer nt being able to make it fer raya outing today...im reli sori i reli cant go today...pls dun b pissed at me anymore...its been a long while since u haf been dis pissed wit me...im so sori...i'll make it up to u...

i haven't been goin out wit my sec sch frens much lately & i can probably understand y Lin is pissed...its juz tt sumtyms e outings juz clashes wit my other plans & i dun haf a choice...juz dun get e wrong idea tt i refuse to go out wit u guys...its juz tt sumtyms i reli cant make it...i reli2 hope u guys understand...

u noe cme to tink of it, it has been lyk a couple of yrs since it last happened...back den we were still in sec sch...i was sarcastic while she was kinda sensitive (no offence)...i often had to wait a couple of mths b4 i can actuali get to tok to her as per normal agen...it happened so often but as we grew older & went to diff cls, we change...i sumhw learnt hw to control e words tt cmes outta my mouth & she changes fer e better...

dun get e wrong idea...im nt sayin tt she shldnt b lyk dis or its her fault...i juz didnt noe tt it wld affect her dis much ...i hope i can make it up...well i wanna make it up...so i reli hope u'll gimme tt chance n nt b pissed anymore...im reli2 sori Lin...sori

H0+

apparently a few ppl in sch said tt im hot...err ok hahaha...its a first fer me...e funny thing is i either dunno dem, havent spoken to dem b4 or nt close wit dem...but e best has yet to cme...dey ppl hu said tt r girls...hahaha interestin...i guess dere's always a first tym fer everythin...btw im nt boastin k i juz dunno wat to blog abt & ppl kip askin me to update so i juz tot of postin dis since tt's e onli interestin thing tt has happened so far =)

Sm!L3s

we r back together agen...im so happy

My Confession...

I have been blind, unwilling to see
The true love you're giving.
I have ignored every blessing.
I'm on my knees confessing

That I feel myself surrender
Each time I see your face.
I am staggered by your beauty,
Your unassuming grace.
And I feel my heart is turning,
Falling into place.
I can't hide
Now hear my confession.

I have been wrong about you.
Thought I was strong without you.
For so long nothing could move me.
For so long nothing could change me.
Now I feel myself surrender
Each time I see your face.
I am captured by your beauty,
Your unassuming grace.
And I feel my heart is turning,
Falling into place.
I can't hide
Now hear my confession.

[bridge:]
You are the air that I breath.
You're the ground beneath my feet.
When did I stop believing?

Cause I feel myself surrender
Each time I see your face.
I am staggered by your beauty,
Your unassuming grace.
And I feel my heart
Falling into place.
I can't hide
Now hear my confession.
I can't hide
Now hear my confession.
Hear my confession

sh33sh@

tryin to act cool =s

action sia...wtf

shawn hung

devan

kenneth

hee...

peace out

check 'IT' out

hmm???

one more word out of u n i'll beat the crap out of u (words frm kenneth)

...

i don't want a lot, i just want you...

Superficial

wohoo my sis gt featured in e malay paper on sunday...am so proud of her...hahaha...but little tt i noe tt she's leavin dis thurs...so i smsed her yest wonderin if i cld c her b4 she leaves...damn im so gonna miz her but cme to tink of it she's onli dere fer lyk a wk...stupid ryte? i tot she's gonna b dere lyk fer a mth or so...oh well hahaha...
anyway here was hw our sms conversation went...

m3: hey looks lyk i wun get to c u b4 u fly off on thurs
h3r: dats y sob2...mish u
m3: wat tym is ur flight?
h3r: 4am
m3: takin budget air huh?
h3r: ya tiger grr...haha <---tryin to act cute la my sis
m3: err...ok hahaha...ur family sendin u off?
h3r: initially no but since it appeared in e paper dey dcided to...hahaha <---damn fucked ryte my family
m3: i dun tink its funny ar...superficial
h3r: haiz...u noe em ryte?
m3: ya...tt saddens me n makes me hate em even more
h3r: forget it la...i seem lyk im happy but it took me v long 2 make em blieve in me <---fucked up
m3: no worries sis fer sure i blieve in u n i'll always will
h3r: muax...love u
m3: love u too...i seriously wanna mit u b4 u fly off

kk i tink its gettin too draggy...so end of story im meetin her later today afta break fast woohoo!!! ok nw e point of dis entry is wat kind of fucked up family e both of us haf...fuckin superficial ryte?!!! i mean ur daughter is flyin off to laos n u didnt even tink of sendin her off...

eh cme on its laos lei nt m'sia...even though if its onli fer a wk didnt u ever tink tt u shld at least c her b4 she leaves...wat if sumthin happens? (touchwood) onli den u r goin to regret n grieve abt it? fuckin too late ryte?! wah i seriously cant take it wen i heard dis...its too much...hw much it hurts to hear ur family doin tt to u...

wtf! my parents sent me off lyk 2am in e morn when i went to thailand n dey still hafta to go werk afta tt...n nw juz cuz she appeared in e god damn paper den u wanna send off...wat kind of fucked up family u guys r...i seriously feel sad fer my sis...she cant do anythin abt it

im seriously thankin god fer watever has happened between me n dem...if nt i'll b sufferin juz lyk my sis...dis kinda family is nt worth havin...i tink it was better fer dem nt to send her off rather den sendin her off cuz of fame...i can tell u tt dere wun b any reporters la on tt day askin u hw do u feel abt ur daughter goin to laos to do community service...even if dere is ur nt qualified to answer

i was tinkin of sendin her off if her family is nt but dey r but fer e wrong reasons...dey r damn lucky i wun b dere...fucked ur parents...god i seriously hate dem so much more ryte nw...i tink e conflict between me n dem is definitely gonna take longer den dis to resolve(or mayb nvr)...

wateva e matter...i hope my sis has a safe flight dere n safe flight hme...im so gonna miz u sis...do take care of urself n no matter wat happens im always here fer u...love u sis =)

could u like...disappear...forever?

wat seems to b e problem? we r over & done wit years ago...u r gettin engaged & i haf my lyf to live...even nw u nvr seem to stay outta my lyf...its always one thing afta another...at e moment its ur stupid bill tt i hafta pay...cuz of dis ppl muz b tinkin if im still desperately holdin on...fortunately I AM NOT!

we r thru...so to clear it up i am onli payin e god damn bill is cuz its under my freakin name & u refused to take responsibility...if i dun pay it im e one gonna get charged in court nt u...so cuz of ur freakin mess im e one hu has to slog my guts out werkin juz to pay off ur $600+ debts & u still owe me lyk $250 on top of tt...

ppl r askin me y am i still doin dis...its nt my bill & i didnt use it...i haf no choice since its under my name...dis is e best solution i can cme up wit...payin off e debt fer u...its ok ppl, money can always b earned easily...dis is e onli thing tt still connects us to one another...once dis is over dere's no more connection between us...

so afta all dis crap u put me thru...u still wan me to wish u on ur freakin b'dae??? pls la...get it in ur head things will nvr b e same between us...wat's dis abt "at least i had e courtesy to wish u...its ok la i wun beg fer sumone to wish me"...hello i nvr asked u to wish me ok...

ya n one more thing...u r gettin engaged...SO??? wtf do u xpect me to say to u? im so happy fer u or sumthin lyk tt? fat hope! u wanna get engage go la...it has nothin to do wit me...e faster u get married e happier i am...so go get engaged, get married, get fucked & most importantly GET OFF MY BACK!

it seriously doesnt pay to b kind to ppl lyk u...so lyk e title say...could u like...disappear...forever???

i love u "Comat"

afta onli 4 mths 3 days, comat has left...wen i initially heard e news frm my mom i was emotionless but afta tinkin of hw he played wit me, chasin afta my leg i suddenly started cryin...i'm gonna miz him alot...

it was reli cute hw he always cuddle up at my legs n end up chasin afta my leg lyk sum kind of toy...nw wit him gone im onli left wit 2 kittens which im gonna dote on even more nw...n give all my attention to...

e other 2 seem to b lookin fer their brother...although we might nt noe their feelings, i bet dey muz feel sad...it feels kinda weird comin hme to c onli e 2 of em runnin arnd e hse...it was onli dis morn he started vomittin at my door (i noe tt's nt a nice last memory of him) and he was gone in e afternoon...

i seriously still feel sad...im tearin as we speak...u can call it denial but i've always blieved tt all animals go to heaven n i hope u r comat...i reli miz u alot oreadi...may u rest in peace n we'll always love n rmb u...

m3

I dunno y but dis song still brings back memories but no longer e memories tt it used to hold...nw installed wit new memories n of a diff person...although e song has no link to e person but sumhw i juz feel lyk listenin to it...

seriously e quote "It's better to want sumone & nt haf 'em then having 'em & nt want 'em" still applies to me afta so many years...i guess its juz e way i am...i dunno fer hw long but apparently its sumthin tt u cant stand & sumthin i cant change...

"Gone"

There's a thousand words that I could say
To make you come home
Oh, seems so long ago you walked away
Left me alone
I remember what you said to me
You were acting so strange
and maybe I was too blind to see
That you needed a change

Was it something I said
To make you turn away?
To make you walk out and leave me cold
If I could just find a way
To make it so that you were right here
But right now..

I've been sitting here
Can't get you off my mind
I've tried my best to be a man and be strong
I've drove myself insane
Wishing I could touch your face
But the truth remains..

You're gone..
You're gone..
Baby you're gone
Girl you're gone, baby girl, you're gone..
You're gone..
You're...

I don't wanna make excuses, baby
Won't change the fact that you're gone
But if there's something that I could do
Won't you please let me know?
Time is passing so slowly now
Guess that's my life without you
and maybe I could change my every day
But baby I don't want to

So I'll just hang around
and find some things to do
To take my mind off missing you
and I know in my heart
You can't say that you don't love me too
Please say you do

Yeeaah....

I've been sitting here
Can't get you off my mind
I've tried my best to be a man and be strong
I Drove myself insane
Wishing I could touch your face
But the truth remains

You're gone..
You're gone..
You're gone
You're gone...you're gone.. you're....
Gone

Ohhh...

Oh what'll I do
If I can't be with you
Tell me where will I turn to
Baby where will I be
Now that we are apart
Am I still in your heart?
Baby why don't you see?
That I need you here with me
Oohhh...

I've been sitting here
Can't get you off my mind
I've tried my best to be a man and be strong
I've drove myself insane
Wishing I could touch your face
But the truth remains

Been sitting here
Can't get you off my mind
I've tried my best to be a man and be strong
I drove myself insane
Wishing I could touch your face
But the truth remains

You're gone..
You're gone..
You're gone
You're gone
Gone
You're gone..

But the truth remains
You're....

ShOr+...

haiz short today $18 so 9 bux each...i tink it muz haf been e service items...ar crap kip gettin pay deducted(but nt as much as e 1st pay cut i gt)...hopefully nt so suay tmr

wtf did i do nw? so its my fault or wat? seriously cant b bothered...up to u la ok u dcide as always...u dun even nw wats e freakin prob n u oreadi make it seem as if its my fault

ORD!!!

woohoo my years of studyin in poly is finally over...
wit juz another 6 more mths of FYP & IAP & i'm out of poly
can't believe tym passes so fast & i'll b graduatin...
well i reli hope my papers went well (all e best to me) hahaha...
fer nw its my rest tym till my FYP starts on 3 sept so i shall rest...agen =)

BoReD

we were supposed to b studyin but ended listenin to "Pakcik" Awin play e guitar n so we decided to take dis pic im too lazy to upload e others so ya dis 2 r e NICEST & CLEAREST
(PS: e cameraman or shld i say woman is NURUL)

ooppsss!!!

err i kinda forgot to thank nurul fer creatin dis blog fer me...
so A BIG THANK U TO U NURUL FATEEN KEISHA!!!
once my freshie always my freshie...
=)

ChEcK d!s OuT!

i found this on one of e webbie so i juz tot of puttin it here juz to try bloggin out =)
ps: im nt supposed to post it here but...

Here are the in depth spoilers for ep 501. I am going to write these in the order in which they appear in the shooting script.

* Helena is now in jail for stealing Catherine's money. She is being lead to her cell and the other inmates are shouting and calling out to her.

* Bette and Tina go see an Admissions Director to try and get Angelica into a decent pre-school. They tell the Director that they want Angelica to grow up surrounded by art. They even mention that her puzzles at home are hand made by particular artists. Angelica also signs to Bette in the interview and impresses the director. The director asking if anyone in their family is deaf. Bette stumbles a little on her words and says that they have a good friend who is deaf. Tina shoots Bette a discreet look.

* Helena is locked into her new cell with her new cellmate. Helena begs to be let out, she wants to know if her mother calls. The guard laughs at her and walks off, leaving her alone with her new cellmate, Dusty. Dusty is described as the biggest, baddest prison butch on steroids. Helena introduces herself to Dusty only to have Dusty crack her knuckles and stare blankly back at her. Helena begins to explain that she won't be in here for very long and that as soon as they can reach her mother, she'll be out of there. She goes to sit on the bottom bunk bed but as she does Dusty states "That's my bunk". Helena springs off the bed and scampers up to the top bunk, where she crawls into the corner, hugging her knees.

* Bette and Tina leave the interview. Seems Bette let slip that they were a lesbian family. But since Tina doesn't think its a good idea for them to know that they are a divorced lesbian family, they lead the director to believe they are still together. As they are walking to their car they spot another gay couple, Ed and Jamal with their little boy, Lucas. Seems they are all travelling the same pre-school circuit and this is not the first time they've bumped into each other. Jamal tells Bette and Tina that they think Lucas has a great chance at getting into this school because he's a Muslim, Ed is Christian, Lucas is adopted and he's half Jewish, a quarter Latino and a quarter Chinese. Bette counters with the fact they have a bi-racial daughter with lesbian moms. They go back and forth a bit until it clear that Lucas has a way better chance of getting in than Angelica does. Bette and Tina get into their car deflated.

* Max sets up 2 cameras and lights as Alice has taken over a corner of the Planet for her new podcast. Shane is there touching up Alice's hair. Seems Alice will be conducting an interview with Phyllis. Alice tells the gang that she's tried reaching Mrs Peabody but could only reach a social secretary who told her that she was abroad and wishes only to be disturbed in the case of an emergency. Shane asks Alice if she told her her daughter's in jail? Alice jokes that she said she knows Mrs Peabody is a broad...but not a very classy one. Phyllis asks how her makeup looks, that she doesn't want to come off looking like a lipstick lesbian. Alice remarks that no she's a total stone butch. Phyllis takes out her notebook and writes that down, stating that she's never heard of that before and that she's studying the "lingo".

* Alice is interviewing Phyllis about her new love, Joyce. Apparently Joyce is going to be throwing Phyllis a coming out party. Phyllis talks about how she was afraid that after coming out her world would become small and that she would be cut off from the life she knew, but that now Joyce has shown her that a whole big beautiful lesbian world is out there waiting for her. Alice asks Phyllis is she has U-Hauled yet. Phyllis has no idea what that means. Alice explains what it is, as Phyllis jots it all down in her notebook.

* Cut to a U-Haul being unloaded. Shane and Paige are being lead to an apartment by Lexi, a very cute, very voluptuous real estate agent. Lexi walks in front of them with a "Feel free to check out my ass" walk. Shane does so. Paige seems to really like it and tells Lexi that they will get back to them by the end of the day, as to whether they will take it or not. Lexi tells Shane that Lisa Pantolini says hi. Shane tells her that she says hi back. Paige is all "Who's Lisa Pantolini?". Shane tells her its just a girl she once knew. Lexi then goes on to tell Shane that she knows Lacey, Brandi Delaney and Megan too. Shane is all "Oh yeah?" and slightly embarrassed. Paige remarks to Shane that she has a long history. Lexi tells them that she couldnt believe it when she heard from Lisa that Shane was moving in with someone. She also says that Lisa talks about Shane all
the time and that she never fully got over her. Shane's all "Oh Im sorry to hear that". Paige then leaves as she has to go get Jared. Shane looks back at Lexi to find she's staring at her. Shane meets her gaze and then looks away. Looks back again, this time with intent.

* Apparently Shane and Lexi get it on, just as Paige bring Jared back to show him their new home. Jared is in another room when Paige finds Shane and Lexi. Jared wants to see his new room but Paige shouts out that there's no point now as the place has been rented by someone else and leaves.

* Tina, running late for a meeting with her boss, enters the room to find not only her boss in the room but also hedge fund billionaire, Spiros Stassinopolous, and Jenny. Tina greets Jenny but Jenny ignores her. Tina's boss introduces Tina to Spiros. They all seem to be talking about scenes from Jenny's new film. Tina's boss is all "Oh I love the scene at the party when Jesse gets separated from her boyfriend and Nina comes over and totally hits on her. And Tina is all shocked like "Nina hits on Jesse?" At this point Jenny turns to Tina to greet her. Jenny tells her she re-wrote the script in Tulum, Mexico, which is where she ran into Spiros. Spiros tells everyone that Jenny was his guest at his villa. Everyone smiles except Tina, she cringe-smiles. Tina's boss tells Tina that he can't wait until she reads Jenny's new re-write. Spiros rambles on about how much vision Jenny has and how she can see the forest through the trees and that she's the only person who could possibly DIRECT this movie. Tina is flabbergasted. Tina is like "She's -- What?". Jenny smiles at Tina. There's a knock on the door and its Jenny's assistant, Monique, with her Pomeranian, Sounder. Jenny jumps up and grabs the dog without even acknowledging Monique. Jenny introduces Sounder to Spiros but then gasps and turns to Monique stating that the ribbon on Sounder is mauve and not the orange she had asked for. Monique tells Jenny that they ran out of orange ribbon and that she thought it was best if it was all one colour instead. Jenny tell Monique that she doesn't pay her to think and to go find her some orange ribbons. Monique leaves.

* Two new characters are introduced; Cindi and Dawn. They introduce themselves to Kit. Dawn tells Kit they are her new neighbours but Cindi just elbows Dawn to SHH. Cindi tells Kit they just moved up here from Miami. They go into the Planet taking note of the poster in the window that every Thursday night is Women's night.

* Back to the prison where Helena is locked up. Shane, Alice and Tina are being escorted to see Helena. Shane and Alice and working Tina over, telling her to stop saying that there's nobody out there for her. All three of them get catcalls all the way down the corridor from the other inmates. Shane's head whips around, she's just spotted a beautiful girl in one of the cells. The girl blows her a kiss and Shane returns the gesture. Shane and Alice continue to try and get Tina to go out. Shane tells her that she doesn't just have to go to bars and that she and Alice are going to help her find a girl. Alice says that they will be her "wingmen, with specially tuned gaydar". Tina laughs.

* Alice, Shane and Tina get taken into the visiting room. Helena enters and sits down. The others try and cheer her up. Alice comments that she's loving the jumpsuit and that orange is so her colour. Shane says she would totally wear that, while Tina tells her that she looks amazingly beautiful. Helena, not reacting to the cheering up, asks if they have heard from her mother. They all exchange looks.

* Shane and Alice have a talk but I only have the last part of it. Alice tells Shane that she is definately a lousy girlfriend (so maybe Shane was all depressed over what she had done to Paige and that's what they had been talking about previously?). They are both drinking and Alice tells Shane that they better drag themselves out to Phyllis' coming out party. Shane comments that while the party will probably be useless for them, they should at least go for Tina. Alice chimes in that yeah Tina needs her "wingmen".

* Back in prison. Two trays of food slide into the cell but once Helena sees what it is she audibly wretches. Dusty, who has already eaten all her food, looks at Helena's tray. Helena gives her the plate of soggy meat and tries to take a bite out of the hunk of bread but its as hard as a rock. Dusty finishes her food and growls at Helena, who then scurries back up to her top bunk, sucking on the crust of her bread.

* At the Planet Joyce's coming out party for Phyllis. Dinner chit chat about the university. Seems the people at this dinner party are all the lesbians from the universities various faculties. They all apparently knew Phyllis was gay well before she came out.

* Apparently there's now a Sushi Bar inside the Planet, as that's where Shane, Alice and Tina are sitting. They are checking out potentials for Tina. Alice points out Kara, one of the women at Phyllis's dinner party. Tina agrees that Kara is attractive but that she wouldn't know how to approach her. Alice and Shane look at each other. Sigh. Shane tells them both to "wait here" as she strolls up to Kara.

* Monique is madly taking notes for Jenny. Jenny is rambling off a list of things she wants Monique to come and do tomorrow morning. Monique tells her that she cant tomorrow morning as she has church. Jenny tells Monique to go to a later service that day but Monique tells her there aren't any other services that day. So she tells her to at least have the stuff done by 6pm. Shane is crossing by in front of them, so Jenny grabs her and tells her she misses her. Shane hugs Jenny and kisses her on the forehead. Shane tells Jenny she has to go, as she's doing something for Tina. Shane notices Monique and introduces herself to her. Jenny interrupts with a "Dont worry that's just my assistant". At this point Monique tells Jenny that she fucking quits and storms off. Jenny runs after her shouting "You'll be sorry".

* Meanwhile Shane walks up to Joyce and Phyllis and tells them both that its a nice party. They introduce the women at the table to Shane. Shane stops on Kara, who is more lovely up close. Shane tells Kara she has beautiful eyes. Kara is clearly charmed. Kara wants to know what Shane's story is but Shane tells her she has no story, that she is a blank page. Kara replies with "Waiting to be written on?". But before anything can happen Shane quickly points out Tina and tells Kara that she really wants to meet her. Alice, who is sitting next to Tina, points her out to Kara. Tina is embarrassed and half-heartedly waves back. Kara turns back to Shane and says "But Im meeting you right now". Kara smiles at Shane. Shane gets a grip and says "Come on. Let's go over".

* Bette enters the Planet and heads over to Kit. She asks her who those women are over there. Kit says she doesn't know but that they are all Joyce's guests. Bette says that she was referring to the two "tanorexics". Kit tells her that they are Cindi and Dawn, that they just moved here from Miami and that she invited them to come in to make some new friends. Bette asks Kit "So they could invite them all to their new hotter-than-hot lesbian club?" and hands Kit a post card which states "COMING SOON, HOT FROM MIAMI, SHEBAR: LA'S LOVELY LADIES HAVE NEVER EXPERIENCED ANYTHING LIKE IT." Kit says "Well fuck me" to which Bette replies "I think they just did".

* Cut back to Kara and Shane sitting with Alice and Tina. Small talk. Alice starts nodding her head to Shane. Shane turns and looks to see Paige looming behind her. Paige asks Shane why she asked her and Jared to move in with her. Shane asks her if she wants to go somewhere to talk about this. Paige is all no just answer me. Meanwhile Bette comes and sits at the table next to Tina and introduces herself to Kara and then whispers into Tina's ear asking what's Paige doing here?. Tina just shrugs. Shane answers with, "Because I thought it would be good for us". Paige then asks Shane why she told Jared that Shay was coming back. Shane replies that she didn't exactly say that, just that she wished he would come back. At this point Im missing a chunk of dialogue but it ends with Shane going silent, everyone at the table looking away and then Paige turning and walking off.

* Shane has her head down on the table while Bette, Tina and Alice are all fawning over her. Bette tells Shane that its not her fault. Alice says that she totally asked for it. Tina says that Paige had no business coming in here like that. Tina tells Bette that Paige came in here totally looking for a fight and that she set herself up. She says "You should have heard the way she called Shane out". At this point Bette has stood up and is looking across the room to JODI, who is coming in through the front door with her suitcase, straight from the airport. Jodi puts down her bags and she and Bette fly into one another's arms, kissing long and deep.

* Not sure what location they are at now but I assume its at Bette's place. Jodi ties a blindfold over Bette's eyes, takes her wrists and pulls her to her feet. Bette stands up. Jodi comes around to the front of her, brushes up against her and breathes very close to her mouth. Bette is turned on. She moves to kiss Jodi but Jodi backs away. Jodi is all "Uh uh". Jodi starts to feel Bette up, slowly and excruciatingly. She unbuttons the top button of Bette's pants, teases, then moves around behind her and rubs against her, letting Bette feel her breasts against her back. Bette moans. Slowly, Jodi slips her arms around Bette, kisses the back of her neck, reaches her hands around and up under Bette's shirt. Makes Bette crazy. Jodi is all "Did you say something?". Jodi bites Bette's ear and slides her hands down her pants.

* Cuts to a fire hose dousing flames. WAX is ablaze. Shane arrives and jumps out of her JEEP. Pushes her way through the crowd to the front of the building, staring up at it. She asks what happened. The fire scene investigator asks Shane if this is her business. She nods yes. He asks her if she has any unhappy customers or maybe a disgruntled employee? Shane just stares at him and tells him not that she knows of. He tells her that its most likely arson. That a window is broken, shoe prints just inside and out and a trail of ignitable liquid. He asks is she has any idea who might have done this. Shane just says no. He asks if she wants to file a report and again Shane just answers no.

over and out