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my poly lyf has finally ended but i feel nothin...absolutely nothin...i've gt nothin to say abt it...i dunno if i feel sad or happy...actuali i dun even noe wat to write in dis entry...i haf alot of things on my mind but i dunno wat is it im tinkin abt most of e tym...

is it u or is it me? afta all those months of waitin, it has bcome pointless ryte nw...cuz all e plans i had made was made wit u in it...nw it is put on hold...u wun pick up my calls, u wun tok to me...i seriously dun tink its my fault...i tink i gave in enuf to u...but no matter hw bad things r, i always end up in e losin end...

so wat e hell am i supposed to do? onli u can ignore but wen i ignore u, ur ignorin me forever makin it seem lyk its my fault...no matter hw i c it or hw i look at it, i reli cant c y it is my fault...u always haf e final say...so wat role do i play between us? e one hu gets all e blame? e one hu makes bad choices?

cuz of u im feelin empty...cuz of u everythin's changed...i hate u & i love u at e same tym...