tym

i had so many things i wanted to do wen i had nothin includin tym...nw i gt everythin esp tym & i haf no one to spend it wit...juz great

australia

tok to my mom abt e australia thingy...guess i might haf a chance to go fer a wk or 2...e longer e better i guess...since i've gt nothin to look forward to, this shld b e onli thing den...once i get back, tym to start lookin fer jobs & dcide wat im gonna do wit my lyf...

i cant wait to get outta here...mom pls lemme go

out

i tink its tym fer me to get outta s'pore...i mean i dun tink i can get into NTU & NAFA is juz temp...i can get a job wit a diploma but tt is juz nt enuf fer me...i dun wan to juz stop at a diploma...i cld do even better wit a degree...werkin & studyin at e same tym seems feasible ryte nw but dere's always e no of yrs spent studyin tt i nid to consider...

i mean i'm gonna hafta do part time studies and its goin to cost me at least 6 yrs of studyin...bsides everybody noes tt e fees r gonna cost a bomb...its definitely nt gonna b easy stayin in s'pore...so i sat dwn e whole day at hme tinkin abt it...i'm considerin goin to australia...i wanna go dere fer a cple of wks, stay wit my cousin & see wat education i can get at their uni...

i nid to get my mind of things as well so i juz tot tt since i haf soo much tym on my hands i might juz as well make use of it...yea i noe sum might ask y australia & nt m'sia or sumthin...firstly im nt a big fan of m'sia & secondly australia is quite near compared to other Caucasian countries...so if everythin goes well wit my mom, i might b leavin fer australia soon to go check out the uni's dere...all i nid to do nw is juz hope tt she agrees *fingers crossed*

You

Every call, every sms I’m wishing that it’s you

I don’t know how it’s going to be like spending my birthday w/o you

I know you hate me yeah I do

But it can’t stop thinking of you

...

i watched jumper on mon & P.S I love u today...hmmm im goin fer a haircut tmr...thurs im goin jb and fri im goin back to my sec sch or go ecp wit my sis...i dunno wat to do wit my weekends & e wk afta...i've planned out wat im gonna do day by day cuz im tryin to kip myself bz but i dunno hw long it'll last...

i cant shake dis feelin off...no matter hw hard i try...i noe i shldnt but i cant help it & it sux...wat am i to do? i kept tellin myself it'll b ok & i'll b fine...its hard & its onli been a couple of days...i dunno hw long i can take dis...its always easier said den done...ARRRGGHHH!!!

ORD

my poly lyf has finally ended but i feel nothin...absolutely nothin...i've gt nothin to say abt it...i dunno if i feel sad or happy...actuali i dun even noe wat to write in dis entry...i haf alot of things on my mind but i dunno wat is it im tinkin abt most of e tym...

is it u or is it me? afta all those months of waitin, it has bcome pointless ryte nw...cuz all e plans i had made was made wit u in it...nw it is put on hold...u wun pick up my calls, u wun tok to me...i seriously dun tink its my fault...i tink i gave in enuf to u...but no matter hw bad things r, i always end up in e losin end...

so wat e hell am i supposed to do? onli u can ignore but wen i ignore u, ur ignorin me forever makin it seem lyk its my fault...no matter hw i c it or hw i look at it, i reli cant c y it is my fault...u always haf e final say...so wat role do i play between us? e one hu gets all e blame? e one hu makes bad choices?

cuz of u im feelin empty...cuz of u everythin's changed...i hate u & i love u at e same tym...

!

FUCK U!!!

stupid

fucked up!